littlebitocd ([info]littlebitocd) wrote,
@ 2006-01-30 18:38:00
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1.30.04
Today is the second anniversary of the day my cousin Nick was killed. There was a memorial mass this morning. I didn't see the relatives I was looking to sit with when I got there, so I just sat by myself, assuming they'd see me when they did get there. I just sat quietly and prayed for the same thing I always do: for God to put me where he wants me to be, and to bring the Sloans back to us.

I missed my last chance to see Nick because I was just being lazy. Bobby's first birthday party--I woke up late and since it was in Gerald, I just didn't go. I've killed myself over that for two years, but it taught me the most important thing I've ever learned:

You will NEVER, EVER regret spending TOO MUCH time with someone who is important to you.

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Aunt Sa
(Anonymous)
2006-03-01 07:20 pm UTC (link)
Kim, You should never regret. Anytime I feel regretful about Nick, like the time he asked me to drive down to Kelly's with him, and I said that I would just take my own car, I realize that maybe he just needed to talk, and I gave up that opportunity just because I like to have my own car with me. I just follow it through and have a conversation with him, and if you would have that conversation with him, he'd say, "you know, Gerald is really far, I totally understand!! Besides, who would have known that was my last family function." That is Nick, always trying to comfort people. He'd probably have a laugh with you about me trying to get him to put Gavin out on the porch when Gav started puking on Heather's carpet (o.k. again, I never had children, just pets!!). You know, there are a lot of things in my life that I regret, and we are talking on a daily perhaps hourly basis--I second guess myself constantly, but this is a definite "do as I say, not as I do." One of Grandma's favori

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Aunt Sa
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2006-03-01 07:21 pm UTC (link)
And the last part of my first attempt at your blog was not only the most profound words that I've ever used, but quite possibly the most profound thing that has ever been said...ever!! Too bad it got cut off. Love ya!

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